Dear Chloe James

If you need any help, do not hesitate to ask.

I hope you will not have anymore trouble than what I am aware of.

We need to reconcile.

I long to ask you for forgiveness. I long to hear that you forgive me too…

I long to see you become the brother that you should be to your siblings.

I long to see you become the son you’re supposed to be too…

I hope that you will find time to listen.

I hope that you will even read this letter.

I hope that you will try, to understand.

I want to bless you.

I want to know you.

Give us that chance.



Today, the 23rd of September, 2015, my wife and I attended the Day of Atonement in Alphaland, Makati City.

Yom Kippur (/jɔːm ˈkɪpər, joʊm, jɒm/; Hebrew: יוֹם כִּפּוּר, IPA: [ˈjom kiˈpuʁ], or יום הכיפורים), also known as Day of Atonement, is the holiest day of the year in Judaism.


Yom means “day” in Hebrew and Kippur comes from a root that means “to atone”. Yom Kippur is usually expressed in English as “Day of Atonement”.

Rosh Hashanah and Yom Kippur

Yom Kippur is “the tenth day of [the] seventh month”[3] (Tishrei) and is regarded as the “Sabbath of Sabbaths”. Rosh Hashanah (referred to in the Torah as Yom Teruah) is the first day of that month according to the Hebrew calendar. On this day forgiveness of sins is also asked of God.

Yom Kippur completes the annual period known in Judaism as the High Holy Days or Yamim Nora’im (“Days of Awe”) that commences with Rosh Hashanah.


Jeremiah 33:8
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I will purify them from all the wrongs they have committed against Me, and I will forgive all the wrongs they have committed against Me, rebelling against Me.

If the people repents!

Leviticus 23:27
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The tenth day of this seventh month is the Day of Atonement. You are to hold a sacred assembly and practice self-denial; you are to present a fire offering to the LORD.

…but we are no longer bound under the Law of Moses, right?

Romans 7:6
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But now we have been released from the law, since we have died to what held us, so that we may serve in the new way of the Spirit and not in the old letter of the law.

Galatians 3:21
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Is the law therefore contrary to God’s promises? Absolutely not! For if a law had been given that was able to give life, then righteousness would certainly be by the law.

Galatians 2:21
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I do not set aside the grace of God, for if righteousness comes through the law, then Christ died for nothing.

The sole reason why the Son of God came into the world to suffer death was to do away our sins and make us righteous with God. But if sin can be purged by the purifications of the Law, and cleanness before God is procurable by Levitical ceremonies, then there was no need for this; then the Crucifixion, for this one end ordained and from the beginning of time prepared for by the Father, and fur this one end, of his own free choice gone forward to, brought about, and undergone by Christ himself, was a simply superfluous sacrifice.

Now since we have already repented on this day, sins of our person, sins of the church, and sins of the nation, we declared freedom, and look forward to a better year since we are already forgiven, and is reconciled again, with God thru our Lord, Jesus Christ.

Anyways, this is a bit profound for everybody. I will continue next time…;)

Why, and what’s in it for us Filipinos.

The Real Unbelievable (PART 1 OF MANY)

Now this is a bit shocking.

This is also very revealing but it has to be done.


I have a son. He’s good looking and always smiling – from what I can recall in his childhood. He’s also fun to be with and is very caring, and very obedient.

Now I wonder why things happened the way they have.

He is already a petty thief before graduating elementary. He even stole his mother’s wedding ring and have it pawned by someone else. Yes, we were able to recover – and paid for it.

He is a big source of stress in his young age, at grade 5 and 6.

Here’s the big puncher.

He stayed with his grandparents for 2 years. 1st year and 2 year High School. This is where he started to become a total stranger to me.

For our desire to have the family complete, I had him transferred back to my care on his 3rd and 4th Year as High School. It just hit me. I really do not know this guy. He can lie straight face. He wouldn’t budge even when asked. He refused to obey – blatantly. I could have been so wrong getting him back. He is the biggest source of stress for the entire family. Uncaring. Not just to his parents, but more so with his siblings. Unyielding. No matter the instruction on what to do, he just wont do anything. Untruthful. He simply cannot tell the truth. He is also the worst thief. He just takes what he likes, what he wants – and will deny taking it. God, this is very unbelievable! He was also allowed to graduate High School despite failing marks! (This could only be God’s grace!)

Despite God’s loving grace, he still bad-mouths his mother. He even curses. He would never talk to Me and would avoid all possibility of talking.

He is in his first year of college now. He is still uncaring. He lacks totally any care for his siblings. To the house where he sleeps. To me who provided for him, and to his mother who takes care of every little thing he needs. Such love! Yes, his mother irons his clothes for him even while he curses her and shouts at her. He is slowly getting violent by the minute…

Just recently, within the last week, he punches a hole in the wooden wall simply because her mother refused to give him what he want. A few days after, he throws things and smeared the wall with red cutics (his sister’s) just because he was not granted his request. He was simply asking for P 30.00 for internet gaming – at past 10pm of the night when we are about to sleep. This guy is already nearing 17 – in a few days. Which reminds me. He goes to school in the morning and go back home not earlier than 9pm. It always seems to be past 11 or worst, 1am – when everybody is asleep and he bangs the door so loud upon arrival. A real king in the making. Demanding as a grave.

He makes-up things too – for the money. He pads what is only needed. He needs P 50.00 to pay something at school – he would ask for P 150.00. Even when he doesnt need to be someplace else, he would find a reason to go out. And yes, the minute he goes out, either he goes home very late or he dont.

Just last week…he left Saturday morning. Not a word to me. I have no idea where he goes. He came back on Sunday morning – and immediately sleep. We then go to Church and to a Feast of the Lord. By the time we got home, there he is – asking to go out late at night. For all the time he stayed in the house alone, it didnt really occur to him that he needs to wash his school uniform and prepare it. He expects his mother to do that. Very unbelievable. He is also angry that there was no food…when in fact there are some in the freezer ready to be cooked. Yes, I think he expects again, his mother to prepare food for him. But wait, there’s more. When we arrived a bit hungry and was talking about what to eat, he cooked 1 chicken FOR HIM ONLY! He ate and go back to his sleep! Oh God!

Well, this has to be written and brought out in the open.

This is my cross.

I am carrying it as much as I can even when I hate it.

But what can anyone do to a 16-yr-old-about-to-turn-17 who doesnt listen and obey?

Here’s one more shocker. All this time, to the shock of her own mother, we were sending sms to someone unknown to us. I was giving him instructions thru text since it’s the only way I have to reach him – but the number is someone else’s. The number is the same number he gave his mother. So i copied. But that same number is not with him. Unbelievable? That’s true!

I haven’t gotten yet to the bottom of the real score about the Cherry Mobile ME I purchased for my wife’s mother. The unbelievable stole it. I know it’s him when I noticed the phone missing. Wife says he admit it this time – that the phone is with him – but he is not giving it back! OMG!

Luckily, wife saw the phone in his shorts while he sleeps and took it back! Thank God!

Well, if you have read this and is lucky enough to have an obedient son and daughter – cherish that. Praise and Thank God for that. It’s what my wife and I long for – the respect due us.

This cross bears so much weight. I continue to carry…but we cant tell for how long. Who knows when I might just throw the cross? We hope in the Lord. We also need prayers. We also need help on what to do. My wife does not agree with violence. She’d cover for his unbelievable son when I am angered – and I would stay put because of her. She never bad-mouths. She never utters a bad word.

Anyways…I do long for that day when I will have no more ‘unbelievable’ problem. That one day when the shocking things cease.

God be praised.

Seek the Lord

Today is the first day of the Ten (10) Days of Awe before the Day of Atonement. It is also the first day of Rosh Hashanah, the Jewish New Year.

To the believers, messianic believers, this is a day of great importance. Even to the Prophetic Church here in the Philippines.

Why seek the Lord?

For the benefit of my friends, family and the general public whom the Lord touches, allow me to relate to you at least one (1) reason why.



As written in the prophetic book of Zephaniah:

Zephaniah 2:3

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Seek the LORD, all you humble of the earth, who carry out what He commands. Seek righteousness, seek humility; perhaps you will be concealed on the day of the LORD’s anger

It is a prophecy of what is to come. No one knows when, but there will be signs. No one knows exactly, but the Lord himself reveals things.

If we are to look closely into the 2nd Chapter of Zephaniah, we will be able to see more clearly why we are instructed as such.

The chapter starts by calling everyone into repentance. Then judgements against the nations were mentioned. For one reason:

10This is what they get for their pride, because they have taunted and acted arrogantly against the people of the LORD of Hosts.

Why wait for the judgement to come when the Lord can spare you by repentance?

3rd of September

Hebrews 12:11 (HCSB)

No discipline seems enjoyable at the time, but painful. Later on, however, it yields the fruit of peace and righteousness to those who have been trained by it.

Hebreo 12:11 Tagalog: Ang Dating Biblia (1905)

Lahat ng parusa sa ngayon ay tila man din hindi ikaliligaya kundi ikalulungkot; gayon ma’y pagkatapos ay namumunga ng bungang mapayapa ng katuwiran sa mga nagsipagsanay sa pamamagitan nito.

Hebrews 12:11 Aramaic Bible in Plain English

But no discipline in its time seems to be joyful, but it is sorrowful; but in the end it yields the fruit of peace and of righteousness to those who have been trained by it.


We all have sinned. We also have all been forgiven the very moment we asked for forgiveness and repented. However, the discipline, goes on. We sometimes wonder why things go the way they do and things happen the way they have. The message is sometimes not that clear. So it seems. It’s best to go back to what the Bible says in the absence of any direct revelation from the Holy Spirit. We all should repent about the way we ignore the Lord’s instructions. We should always be thankful for His mercy and grace, and for rebuking us whenever we fall astray. Living in the Spirit is only possible when we choose not to be carnal…




What Happened to the Commissioned Apostles?

We all know the story as written in the book of Acts.

But after that, and many many years after, what happened to the apostles?

Searching through the internet and looking at many websites, I have summarized as follows:

  1. PETER and PAUL were both martyred in Rome. Paul was beheaded. Peter was crucified upside down at his request, since he did not feel that he was worthy to die in the same manner as his Lord.
  2. ANDREW went to Soviet Union, Turkey, and Greece – where he was crucified on an x-shaped cross. This meant that he was tilted to one side or the other and was not crucified vertically or horizontally. It is believed that while he hung on that cross dying, he called to the crowds and taught them about Jesus Christ and how they might be saved.
  3. THOMAS, the doubting Thomas, preached in the area east of Syria and as far east as India – where he died pierced by a spear.
  4. PHILIP had a powerful ministry in Carthage in North Africa and then in Asia Minor (Turkey). He converted the wife of a Roman Proconsul and was arrested and cruelly put to death – impaled by iron hooks in his ankles and hung upside down.
  5. MATTHEW the tax collector ministered in Persia and Ethiopia. He was arrested in Ethiopia and was staked or impaled to the earth by spears and then beheaded. He went where few historians or christians ventured to go – the remote places in Africa.
  6. BARTHOLOMEW had widespread missionary travels to India with Thomas, back to Armenia, Ethiopia and Southern Arabia. He was martyred in Armenia. He is also known as Nathaniel. He was flayed to death by a whip, where he was literally torn to shreds.
  7. JAMES the son of Alpheus ministered in Syria. Stoned and clubbed to death. He was thrown first 100 feet off a wall.
  8. SIMON the zealot ministered in Persia, and was killed after refusing to sacrifice to the sun god. Some writings say that he was also crucified. (no way of knowing the truth here)
  9. MATTHIAS was the apostle chosen to replace Judas. He was sent to Syria with Andrew and was put to death by burning. Some say he was stoned and beheaded. (no way of knowing the truth here)
  10. JOHN is the only one of the company generally thought to have died a natural dead from old age. He was the leader of the church in Ephesus and is said to have taken care of Mary, the mother of Jesus. he was exiled in the Island of Patmos, where he wrote the last book of the New Testament – the Revelation.
  11. JUDE who wrote the next to the last book of the New Testament in the same name went all the way to Persia (Iran) – where he was crucified. (no way of knowing the truth here)
  12. JUDAS ISCARIOT the betrayer, some believed, is not fair to be called an apostle since he never truly converted nor was ever commissioned. We all know his death after Jesus’ crucifixion. Some writings of the apostle does not include him.


Psalm 103:12

As far as the east is from the west, so far has He removed our transgressions from us. (HCSB)


Reading the whole of Psalm 103 brings us to a whole lot of great things about our God. The above quoted verse is just but one of the many things He has done for us – and is continually doing. We all have sinned…not one is righteous in the eyes of God – but the Son redeemed us. Hence, King David starts the Psalm with so much call for praise!

Allow me to highlight the good things God does, and what He is:

  • He forgives sins – no matter how grave!
  • He heals diseases – and any disease at that!
  • He redeems us from death
  • He crowns us with love and tender mercies
  • He fills our life with good things
  • He gives righteousness and justice to those who are treated unfairly
  • He revealed His character to Moses
  • He revealed His deeds to the people of Israel
  • He is compassionate and merciful
  • He is slow to get angry
  • He is filled with unfailing love
  • He will not constantly accuse us, nor remain angry forever
  • He does not punish us for all our sins – while we repeatedly disgust Him!
  • He does not deal harshly with us as we deserve
  • He is like a father to His children
  • He is tender and compassionate to those who fear Him
  • He knows how weak we are
  • He remembers we are only dust
  • His love remains forever with those who fear Him
  • His salvation extends to the children’s children of those who are faithful to His covenant, of those who obey His commandments
  • He made the heavens His throne
  • From heaven, He rules over everything – Hence, He is Lord of everything!

This is just from one (1) Psalm. There’s more!

Knowing all of the above about our awesome God will really prompt our spirit to praise Him. Such love…such mercy…such power!

Indeed who can fathom the depth of God’s love?

Praise be to our loving God!