How?

How do I send the message when I am blocked?

How do I get to be understood when I am ignored?

If I whisper it to the wind, will it reach you?

If I shout it aloud, while you are far away, will you hear?

I have questions.

I have feelings.

I have no answer.

 

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15th of November 2018

I went to a 2-hour 3:1 Run:Walk.

My mind took me someplace else too.

I was chosen to be one of a participant in a Best Coach of the Philippines show. I also won the public’s adoration. My value increased, and I got a lot of big time opportunities. I got rich too.

While I was messaging her everyday…and getting nothing for reply, I decided to see her one night by surprisingly appearing in a meeting.

I messaged her beforehand that I’d be coming to get her.

I saw that she was crying even before I came.

She was longing for the day that I would see her again.

I didn’t know that she was even crying long before I arrived.

I entered the room like a cat…and saw her eyes. She was crying, she stood up and ran to me…open arms and jumped at me.

We embraced and she was just murmuring a clear murmur of ‘Im sorry…I didn’t mean to hurt you’…and we kissed, to the shock of everyone present.

She faced the group, well, we did, and she told them – ‘We’d be back’…and we went out.

Headed somewhere …

  • amazing how detailed it is
  • amazing at how clear it is in my mind
  • hoping that it will happen
  • praying to God that this will come true

What Went Wrong

October 13 was just fine.

October 14 run shouldn’t have happened.

This started every problem known to the imagination.

October 15 was an attempt to fix things.

October 17 is a miracle. The greatest miracle on the face of the earth unknown to any man.

October 18 to present is the end result of October 14th.

I wish that I could turn back the clock.

The DAM of listed anger was released.

The DAM of held patience was broken.

The DAM of wrath was opened.

The WRATH of i-dont-care poured out.

All is my fault.

How do I take back the thoughtless words I have said?

How do I remove the hurt they bring?

What can I do to bring back what was lost?

How do I ask forgiveness if I am not listened to?