What Went Wrong

October 13 was just fine.

October 14 run shouldn’t have happened.

This started every problem known to the imagination.

October 15 was an attempt to fix things.

October 17 is a miracle. The greatest miracle on the face of the earth unknown to any man.

October 18 to present is the end result of October 14th.

I wish that I could turn back the clock.

The DAM of listed anger was released.

The DAM of held patience was broken.

The DAM of wrath was opened.

The WRATH of i-dont-care poured out.

All is my fault.

How do I take back the thoughtless words I have said?

How do I remove the hurt they bring?

What can I do to bring back what was lost?

How do I ask forgiveness if I am not listened to?



Positively Unpredictable

I got my Certificate from Toastmasters International today. Level 2, Motivational Strategies Path.

Yesterday was surprisingly sad, and bothersome. The day before was so fine. Today, I don’t know. I expect a good day. I expect the best. It’s just too unpredictable…and I choose to stay positive about the negative thoughts I have.


27th of August 2018

I learned something.

I realized a lot.

It’s hard. It’s painful. It’s unbelievable.

If it’s true, it’s sad.

I hope it is just another lie.

The road I travel is rolling and full of ups and downs. I look up to the ups. But the downs can really pull me down.

The end of my road is a boulder?

A dead-end where there is no way to work around?

I don’t know. If it is, I do not even want to find out.

If it isn’t – I hope i’d be happily surprised.